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🌀being🌀 the art of non-doing. non-doing is not equated to non-action. non-doing is a consciousness; a state of mind where all action comes from being and embodiment. most people are used to taking action out of reactivity, out of following the status quo, or from the narratives their mind is repeating. I know I take lots of action based on the abovementioned reasons AND what I’m finding is that as I nourish myself and my nervous system, 1) I’m able to practice being in the consciousness of non-doing and build trust in it and 2) cultivating this consciousness brings me all that I need in ways my mind could never strategize to bring. ever notice how a “miracle” sometimes happens out of the blue? once we have “given up”, then the miracle enters? this space of “out of the blue”’is fertile with possibility for our lives. as I nurture myself from the burnout I’ve experienced the last 7 years and choose to take myself out of burnout cycles, Im aware of how often I’ve chosen the consciousness of “doing” and how it has exhausted me, depleted my life force, strengthened stories of hopelessness and powerlessness. I’m practicing choosing non-doing more these days, and I’m noticing more life force and vitality, more passion inside of me, and more resources to be in flow and harmony with life. the key to non-doing practice is awareness and building the ability to see myself and track my consciousness at any given point so that I may be aware of where I’m energetically at and make a conscious choice how to flow or rather make a conscious choice to allow the flow to choose how to move me 🙏🏾
🌀being🌀 the art of non-doing. non-doing is not equated to non-action. non-doing is a consciousness; a state of mind where all action comes from being and embodiment. most people are used to taking action out of reactivity, out of following the status quo, or from the narratives their mind is repeating. I know I take lots of action based on the abovementioned reasons AND what I’m finding is that as I nourish myself and my nervous system, 1) I’m able to practice being in the consciousness of non-doing and build trust in it and 2) cultivating this consciousness brings me all that I need in ways my mind could never strategize to bring. ever notice how a “miracle” sometimes happens out of the blue? once we have “given up”, then the miracle enters? this space of “out of the blue”’is fertile with possibility for our lives. as I nurture myself from the burnout I’ve experienced the last 7 years and choose to take myself out of burnout cycles, Im aware of how often I’ve chosen the consciousness of “doing” and how it has exhausted me, depleted my life force, strengthened stories of hopelessness and powerlessness. I’m practicing choosing non-doing more these days, and I’m noticing more life force and vitality, more passion inside of me, and more resources to be in flow and harmony with life. the key to non-doing practice is awareness and building the ability to see myself and track my consciousness at any given point so that I may be aware of where I’m energetically at and make a conscious choice how to flow or rather make a conscious choice to allow the flow to choose how to move me 🙏🏾
kundalini smiles 🌀 get into it Join me for my weekly class at @anasayoga tomorrow Wednesday 8/21 at 10am Staying with these last days of Leo season, we will work with a kriya for the heart & prosperity!! Hope to see you there. Sat Nam ♥️♥️♥️ • #satnam #kundaliniyoga #kundaliniyogateacher #oaklandyoga #oaklandkundaliniyoga
kundalini smiles 🌀 get into it Join me for my weekly class at @anasayoga tomorrow Wednesday 8/21 at 10am Staying with these last days of Leo season, we will work with a kriya for the heart & prosperity!! Hope to see you there. Sat Nam ♥️♥️♥️ • #satnam #kundaliniyoga #kundaliniyogateacher #oaklandyoga #oaklandkundaliniyoga
MELANIN IS A GIFT FROM GOD 🙏🏾
MELANIN IS A GIFT FROM GOD 🙏🏾
relaxed girl summer 🌀🌀🌀 📷: @zahra_siddiqui
relaxed girl summer 🌀🌀🌀 📷: @zahra_siddiqui
SA RE SA SA SA RE SA SA That Infinite Totality is here, everywhere. Full Moon Love from the Vortex 🌀🌀🌀
SA RE SA SA SA RE SA SA That Infinite Totality is here, everywhere. Full Moon Love from the Vortex 🌀🌀🌀
There’s a story about my father as a child, where he went to his father and said, “Daddy I know why they [white folx]hate us?” And his father said, “how come?”, and my father responding, “Because we are from the stars.” • A reminder during these times when we are witnessing injustice and folx completely dissociating from their humanity to NOT forget who you are (to those who carry star energy and DNA). Do not forget the secrets of the Universe that reside in your DNA. Do not forget your ancestors and who you come from. And do NOT forget the powers you have that are beyond this realm. When we try to meet certain dynamics on this realm with the same frequency of the dynamic, we end up stuck. We must use our power that resides on another frequency. You must go in and reclaim this power and not conform to what you’re seeing on the news et. Please let’s not forget who we are.
There’s a story about my father as a child, where he went to his father and said, “Daddy I know why they [white folx]hate us?” And his father said, “how come?”, and my father responding, “Because we are from the stars.” • A reminder during these times when we are witnessing injustice and folx completely dissociating from their humanity to NOT forget who you are (to those who carry star energy and DNA). Do not forget the secrets of the Universe that reside in your DNA. Do not forget your ancestors and who you come from. And do NOT forget the powers you have that are beyond this realm. When we try to meet certain dynamics on this realm with the same frequency of the dynamic, we end up stuck. We must use our power that resides on another frequency. You must go in and reclaim this power and not conform to what you’re seeing on the news et. Please let’s not forget who we are.
image repost & card: @gabbybernstein • “I can do less and attract more.”• • The less I do, the more I receive. Doing does not equal “more”. Doing doesn’t not guarantee happiness, joy or whatever idea of success you have. In fact, sometimes doing serves as a distraction from actually be present so that one can even feel their happiness and joy and wholeness. Many of the people I know and admire and consider successful prioritize being and moving slow. They’re masters at non-doing. Instead of thinking they have have to “do” everything, they prioritize gratitude in the moment and cultivate stillness. They actually aren’t even concerned about the concept of “more” because they are enjoying the fullness of their lives in the moment and practicing contentment. They know there is nothing to “fix”, and are truly in unconditional love mode. And yet everything gets “done”, that is #goals.
image repost & card: @gabbybernstein • “I can do less and attract more.”• • The less I do, the more I receive. Doing does not equal “more”. Doing doesn’t not guarantee happiness, joy or whatever idea of success you have. In fact, sometimes doing serves as a distraction from actually be present so that one can even feel their happiness and joy and wholeness. Many of the people I know and admire and consider successful prioritize being and moving slow. They’re masters at non-doing. Instead of thinking they have have to “do” everything, they prioritize gratitude in the moment and cultivate stillness. They actually aren’t even concerned about the concept of “more” because they are enjoying the fullness of their lives in the moment and practicing contentment. They know there is nothing to “fix”, and are truly in unconditional love mode. And yet everything gets “done”, that is #goals.
the pleasure principle: sensual yoga & movement🌺this Saturday 8/10 at @hotspotyo (Park Blvd) 🌀 life resides within our senses. somehow the word “sensuality” has gotten all taboo-Ed up, when sensuality is a basis for our human life experience. 🌀 🌀 Often when I’m moving really quick or rushing through the day (#decolonizetime), I disconnect from my senses. I sacrifice my sacred senses and enjoyment to adhere to some false notion of “time”, and “expectations”. When I slow down, I smell the beautiful roses that live alongside the lake, I adorn myself with the oils and scents that bring me pleasure, I taste every morsel and ounce of food and liquid that enter my body. I am ALIVE. Senses are the gatekeepers to ALIVENESS! 🌀 Join me Saturday 8/10 for a sensual yoga & movement class. Slowing down, tapping into our senses, and making space to identify what we feel along the journey. Let’s make sacred sounds and shapes together. Wear anything that activates your senses, aliveness and pleasure! Registration link in bio! Photo by @judyrukatphotography 🌀 #hotspotyo
the pleasure principle: sensual yoga & movement🌺this Saturday 8/10 at @hotspotyo (Park Blvd) 🌀 life resides within our senses. somehow the word “sensuality” has gotten all taboo-Ed up, when sensuality is a basis for our human life experience. 🌀 🌀 Often when I’m moving really quick or rushing through the day (#decolonizetime), I disconnect from my senses. I sacrifice my sacred senses and enjoyment to adhere to some false notion of “time”, and “expectations”. When I slow down, I smell the beautiful roses that live alongside the lake, I adorn myself with the oils and scents that bring me pleasure, I taste every morsel and ounce of food and liquid that enter my body. I am ALIVE. Senses are the gatekeepers to ALIVENESS! 🌀 Join me Saturday 8/10 for a sensual yoga & movement class. Slowing down, tapping into our senses, and making space to identify what we feel along the journey. Let’s make sacred sounds and shapes together. Wear anything that activates your senses, aliveness and pleasure! Registration link in bio! Photo by @judyrukatphotography 🌀 #hotspotyo
Rest In Peace Queen Toni Morrison, Creator blesses us with your channel. • In this interview, Morrison speaks about how the being questioned constantly about the absence of many white people in her novels. And she says, “ it’s as though our lives have no meaning in depth without the white gaze” as a response. • Part of my own interest in being with Black folx or cultivating POC folx is to CENTER US! Not to keep centering whiteness or white people as an organizing identity glue, but to center OUR GAZE and our cultures, our meanings of things, and our JOY & PLEASURE. • I got into an interesting conversation this weekend about how to change white-cultured “yoga” spaces. There was the idea that to bring in more teachers of color would do it. I disagreed. That to me feels tokenizing and just another way to not actually change the culture of these institutions but to have a few tokens to point to each time the word of “diversity”, etc come up. I said to me part of it is just stop talking about the white people or white-centered POC who are obviously suffering. I proposed let’s talk about us! Let’s talk about those of us POC identifying folx - what we need, our dreams, our asks, what support we need professionally, who wants to be set up on a date, etc. let’s do us and get to know each other intimately, not just through the white gaze. • #tonimorrison
Rest In Peace Queen Toni Morrison, Creator blesses us with your channel. • In this interview, Morrison speaks about how the being questioned constantly about the absence of many white people in her novels. And she says, “ it’s as though our lives have no meaning in depth without the white gaze” as a response. • Part of my own interest in being with Black folx or cultivating POC folx is to CENTER US! Not to keep centering whiteness or white people as an organizing identity glue, but to center OUR GAZE and our cultures, our meanings of things, and our JOY & PLEASURE. • I got into an interesting conversation this weekend about how to change white-cultured “yoga” spaces. There was the idea that to bring in more teachers of color would do it. I disagreed. That to me feels tokenizing and just another way to not actually change the culture of these institutions but to have a few tokens to point to each time the word of “diversity”, etc come up. I said to me part of it is just stop talking about the white people or white-centered POC who are obviously suffering. I proposed let’s talk about us! Let’s talk about those of us POC identifying folx - what we need, our dreams, our asks, what support we need professionally, who wants to be set up on a date, etc. let’s do us and get to know each other intimately, not just through the white gaze. • #tonimorrison
Healing requires great humility. The humility to 1) not know and not try to understand from your neurotic mind and 2) drop the story that that you aren’t perfect just as you are. • • It takes so much courage to love ourselves just as we are - to love our bodies, the size of our body parts, to love the whiny and jealous parts, and the joyful parts. It also takes humility. Humility to bow to our being and now to the way we behave and observe it without taking our own actions personally. • • The irony of healing is that at a certain point you have to let go of the idea that there is something “wrong” with you. If you hold on to that story, you stay with that story. At a certain point you MUST claim your divinity and claim every single aspect as divine. Because in that radical acceptance lies wholeness, and in the experience of wholeness lies complete health. • • Many healers are making hella money off of continuing to feed into the concept that something is wrong with you. There is big consistent money in perpetuating this myth. And for many it has become so familiar to hate oneself that this myth actually feels more comfortable than the truth which is that you are 100% perfect and divinely created. • Some of us feel so comfortable being self deprecating and depriving that we resist love in our lives. We resist our own love and the love of others. We are working overtime to NOT see our divine Radiance. We feel judgement and jealous and anger toward those we see loving themselves. We can’t imagine how they can’t see all their “flaws” and we judge them for it. • Each day I’m seeing how I do this more clearly and how I have become familiar with doing things out of obligation or from the perspective of thinking something is wrong with me. Don’t bother doing any “healing work” if it’s rooted in the belief you’re not good enough or rooted in self judgement. Don’t bother keeping yourself in this cycle. Because as long as that is the driving force, everything you do will be affirming and reinforcing that belief. •
Healing requires great humility. The humility to 1) not know and not try to understand from your neurotic mind and 2) drop the story that that you aren’t perfect just as you are. • • It takes so much courage to love ourselves just as we are - to love our bodies, the size of our body parts, to love the whiny and jealous parts, and the joyful parts. It also takes humility. Humility to bow to our being and now to the way we behave and observe it without taking our own actions personally. • • The irony of healing is that at a certain point you have to let go of the idea that there is something “wrong” with you. If you hold on to that story, you stay with that story. At a certain point you MUST claim your divinity and claim every single aspect as divine. Because in that radical acceptance lies wholeness, and in the experience of wholeness lies complete health. • • Many healers are making hella money off of continuing to feed into the concept that something is wrong with you. There is big consistent money in perpetuating this myth. And for many it has become so familiar to hate oneself that this myth actually feels more comfortable than the truth which is that you are 100% perfect and divinely created. • Some of us feel so comfortable being self deprecating and depriving that we resist love in our lives. We resist our own love and the love of others. We are working overtime to NOT see our divine Radiance. We feel judgement and jealous and anger toward those we see loving themselves. We can’t imagine how they can’t see all their “flaws” and we judge them for it. • Each day I’m seeing how I do this more clearly and how I have become familiar with doing things out of obligation or from the perspective of thinking something is wrong with me. Don’t bother doing any “healing work” if it’s rooted in the belief you’re not good enough or rooted in self judgement. Don’t bother keeping yourself in this cycle. Because as long as that is the driving force, everything you do will be affirming and reinforcing that belief. •

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Scorpio Full Moon Vibes

May 08, 2017

Scorpio Full Moon
Wednesday 5/10/17 | 2:42pm PT

Scorpio rules sex, death and taxes.  It rules all of the things we typically work (usually unconsciously) to not think about; the shadow.  Shadows are the areas in our life that we tend to be working hard to get rid of, to not show about ourselves, and/or to erase from our psyche.  It is that thing we go to therapy to fix or that body part we go on a diet because of.  The irony is that the shadow is usually apparent in some way, even though we may try to kill it...it is indestructible.  It is a part of the soul, is a part of God, and therefore can never be erased or killed.  It will take new forms, swim different paths, but its presence will always be. 

I recently started chanting the 18th pauri as a 40 day practice leading up o my 35th birthday.  This pauri spoke to me as it gives the hope to be able to dissolve the illusion between shadow and light.  Chanting this pauri has the effect of, "fights madness, deep feelings of inferiority and self-destructive behavior" (according to Yogi Bhajan). Trying to kill my shadow is self-destructive.  Whatever I do to my shadow, I do to my whole self.  This whole past year has been about reckoning with my shadow and learning to forgive myself over and over again.  In reading an article about this pauri, the author Eck Ong Kaar Kaur writes: 

The shadow forces us to face what we do not want to face, and make peace with what we do not want to acknowledge.

The beauty of Kundalini Yoga is that it brings what is unconscious into consciousness.  As I continue to dive into this pauri, it is bringing me awareness of the discomfort I have around my body.  My relationship to my body is .... dysfunctional?  It is abusive and critical.  From age 5, I learned to say disparaging comments to myself particularly about my physical appearance and body.  I learned to see myself as ugly and to see my body as abnormal and unpleasant for other people to look at.  I learned ways to manage my body; abusive words, controlled disordered eating, and covering myself up and trying to camouflage my fleshy big legs and soft belly.  

Trying to hide is exhausting.  I am still hiding at age 34, the same hiding I did at age 7.  A friend asked me tonight, "What would be the opposite of hiding?"....I responded "Letting myself be seen, not controlling what others see in me".  I feel scared writing this.  A part of myself is judging myself right now, "Shirley, this is everyone's story - you sound so basic writing about being seen!" It is true, this experience is probably very relatable to many human beings, and it is okay that I am sharing my experience.  I have wanted to kill this story and experience for years.  I have wanted to overcome it.  Today as I write though, overcoming feels like a part of the abuse cycle.  I wonder what acceptance could be like.

I think I am hiding from others, but the truth is most people probably can see all this that I am writing about.  Most people who know me probably can see or sense my insecurities, my desperate attempts to hide and my discomfort with my body.  This pauri is bringing to light that the person I am trying to hide from so often is myself.  I don't want to see me, my shadow, or my light.  I want to see fragments that I can criticize.  I am familiar with being critical toward myself.  It scares me to see my shadow, to see God and the brilliance of my psyche dancing as this shadow.

I don't know what to do from here.  I don't know what will happen.  I am not sure I will ever have a  sweet, unconditionally loving healthy relationship with my body.  I also think it is okay that I don't.  What seems most important right now is that I just make space to see myself and practice seeing myself and taking myself in.  Taking it ALL in...flaws and all.  Taking it all in, God and all.

May your full moon be full of permission to take your full self in - your shadow, your light - your stories - your relationships; taking it all in as it is now with judgement or without, but just allowing it to be so that you can see yourself, the same way you see the full moon; as magical, powerful, and whole.

 

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